Out of order?

I'm now beyond week 3, I know I skipped a couple weeks in the blog...I'll fill them in later. Overall...this experience is a supreme struggle. Now after 3 weeks, I can say I'm feeling better in that I have very little jaw pain and I'm getting some of my energy/appetite back. The main problem now is ear pain and my most recent addition of pain, a sore on my tongue, and of course with my mouth banded shut...I cant get at it to even look at it. Then there is the chin throbbing. Good thing I still have some oxycodone left....this takes the pain away...period, good stuff. Now I'm not one for drugs... I take what I need and try to get off them asap. I've been doing half doses as needed. I hope these pains are even more temporary than the jaw pains.

Swelling is under control, I still have some, but its not going up and down as it was in past weeks. Looking forward to the day when my face returns back to normal....or at least the the new normal, I have no idea that that will be. This messes with the mind....
I'm now drinking from a cup instead of the syringe, this makes eating a bit easier, and life a bit easier for my wonderful wife.

So I don't feel so "out of order" but its very difficult to get anything done that requires me to sit upright or stand. Its the DROOL. With a lip you can't feel, and a malformed mouth because of the remaining swelling, its like a drool faucet. Remember the numb face you last had at the dentist appointment and then stretch that numbness out for a long period of time(possibly forever!) You end up drooling on everything you touch, this is very frustrating, VERY!!! This too, I'm hoping is very temporary.

So its down to some excruciating ear pain, a sore on my tongue, a throbbing chin and the mental game. Let me tell you about the mental game. No matter how much you read and try to prepare yourself for the mental game, it messes with your head. All I want is to open my mouth and eat like a normal person and I can't. So what do you do when your sitting around in bed, watch TV, and what is on every 10 minutes? Commercials, and not just any commercials, food commercials......pure torture. Then as I mentioned before, the normal face? Looking at yourself in the mirror not knowing what your going to look like is a mind blowing.

So the good parts!!! There is a positive side to the surgery. I sleep!!! My wife sleeps!! And I dream, dreams are a rare thing when you have OSA. I still think it will be worth it, its just a struggle to keep positive over such a long healing period.